When an Engineer Speaks...

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A thought to ponder upon (and should be remembered for the new year).

2011 has been a crazy to many of us. For me though more than anything, it’s a year of celebration…a celebration of many things: of happiness, of success, of the things that I learned, of the challenges that I have to get through, of the  people who made me realize that my life is something that is worth living for and that a celebration that of myself.

You know if there’s one thing that makes this 2011 so special is that I felt that all the hardwork and the effort I exerted for me to get through my classes was worth it. All those sleepless nights (which will happen again starting next week), all the stress and most of all prayers were answered. 

To my DLSU IE batchmates/friends:

Congratulations to my batch mates who have graduated already. I’m soooo proud of you and to my new batchmates, thank you for accepting me wholeheartedly. Thank you for making my stay a whole lot easier than it is! :)

To my DHL family:

Thank you for the wonderful three months that I have been there. I really did not notice the time that has passed me by -  a testament that says how much I’ve enjoyed my short but sweet stay there. Thank you for all the learnings that I will carry along as i enter the toughest stage of my stay in DLSU.

To my Friends:

Well, you have always been my backbone. Aside from my parents and my family, you have always been my driving force for me to strive and achieve. My 2011 would not be complete without you!

Farmers:

Well if friends are my backbone, you are building block of that backbone. I know, i may not have always been in all gatherings and reunions that happened for the year but what I felt is that acceptance, care and love as friends and that I have a special place in our barkada. Thank you and I will continue to love you the way you love me!

To my uber bestfriends Pia and Jannina:

You guys have been my walking diary since we became close friends. I can tell you anything and be anyone that I want without any judgments. You are my rock and you are two precious friends that I would not afford to lose. Thank you my best friends and I super duper love you! :)

Lastly, to my Family:

I’m not perfect and I have many shortcomings but you continue to love me for what you see and for what I’m worth. You are half of the reason why I’m still pushing and pushing…fighting and fighting like there’s no tomorrow. Thank you and I love you soooo much! :D

….and of course to my Creator:

This has been a challenging year for me no doubt. If it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t be able to make it this year. Thank you for making me believe in you more and for staying by my side through my ups and downs and through the different trials I’ve been through. I offer and will continue to offer everything to you!

To the people who made my 2011 as much fun as it is right now, may our relationship step up a notch this coming 2012. Thank you! :)

The year 2011 has been an epic failure when it comes to my side of blogging. I’ve tried numerous times to revive it but time and again I failed. This I guess, is one reason why my grammar has been severely challenged and I can’t speak as fluently as I was (or was there a time that it ever happened? LOL.) before. Even my writing skills have deteriorated. Blah, Blah.

Oh well, one resoultion I have for the coming year is to become a more active blogger as I have always been a talkative person. Well whatever, all I want to say is I’m back and I hope I’d be able to live it up this time. I hope.

Lately, i have been running to errands about car care maintenance and i really want to know some of the things about car care and understand some of the things i have to watch out.

1.) When is the best time to check the tires’ air pressure and fill the gas up?

Some say it should be in the morning, some say it should be in the night. So which is which? and what should i watch out about the car’s tires?

2.) Why is it necessary to change the engine’s oil?

Yesterday, i had the van’s engine oil changed. In essence, why does this need to be done and if the car is used say, once or twice a week, when is the right time to have it changed?

3.) What is there an “overdrive” function in automatic transmission cars and what does it really do?

It has been puzzling me for quite sometime, what does an overdrive function in automatic transmission-ed cars do? When does it have to be activated and when should it be turned off? I just want to understand how these things work so that I know which settings would do me best.

Also, how would i know if the van is experiencing this so called transmission sliding?

4.) What does octane ratings tell about the gasoline’s capability, which should be the used in certain scenarios (say city driving, highway driving etc)?

I have been wondering ever since what octane ratings mean when it comes to gasoline ratings. Do gassing up to higher octane ratings will yield overall savings compared to say, 93 octane rating of unleaded? Please, let me know your insights about this.

Well, sorry for the long post, i am really eager to learn on things i have to watch out for as well as the things that would make the family’s van run more efficiently. thank you for your inputs. :D

So while i’m at it, here’s another attempt to revive my “on-off” tumblring. I’ve been running around things lately and though i am currently not as stressed as i used to be, somehow i am just to lazy to update this page. What is weirder than weird (okay, failed attempt at being cool) is though i may not be as busy as i use to be, i still find it hard for me to blog. No, don’t get me wrong: haters gonna hate and fuck that perfect grammar to those who think they are such geniuses and I really don’t mind them. I guess, i just lack the energy to do post updates.

Somehow I’ve been looking for an inspiration (for the first time, it’s not something really mushy. Something, i think i should be proud of) for me to continuously update. At this point I guess, I’m looking for an identity (or maybe keep things a bit more personal…just like before) on how my blog should be. Should i keep a certain motif, make it half the motif i want and half personal or whatever or anything you would want to know hear or want me to write about? let me know (secretly, i have been wanting to set a corner for those who have okay…love problems and give my take on it) some suggestions. I’m really excited to do something that is really close to me and I hope this time (keeping my fingers crossed), i’d be able to sustain the interest that i had before.

So the lazy blogger is back and hopefully, i’d be able to post updates as often as i can. Show some love naman oh? Please? LOL. :)

Hello Tumblr! It’s been a while since I was here. Sad to say though that I am here for a reason and this is something that I have been wanting to let out.

It has been a very tough week for me so far. Not only because of the academic load that I am faced with given the short amount of time but, past happenings have made me rethink (as if i don’t do that) the kind of person I am.

As much as I don’t want to talk about this, I kind of feel the need to pour all of what I’m feeling right now and this is because one of the most crucial weeks for this term is about to come and I can’t feel bad about myself because once I do, everything will falter down so I guess, it’s okay for me to spend a little more time sharing my sentiments than to let everything fall down without doing anything for it.

I guess my main qualm here is handling rejection. Especially that I came from a lot of rejections already. Like what I said in one of my tweets, I will take things maturely from this point on but I don’t know what went wrong. Was it me, am I not likable, don’t I look qualified? What do I lack: credentials, academic achievements, extra-curriculars, special skills perhaps? Sigh, I don’t know. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not at someone or anyone in particular. This is just my way by which I want to evaluate my self so I could work on what’s wrong with me.

Right now, I feel so little. The little confidence that I have has been shattered to pieces. The self-doubt that I have has grown deeper and I was (and is I think) out of focus.

Well, I couldn’t do anything about it. Everything has been done already. I wish that by doing this, by pouring all my emotions out (wow, lalim ah?) in this post, this too shall finally pass and that I’d be able to overcome all stumbling blocks.

I have to be strong. last two weeks, here I go.

Every Tuesdays and Fridays, I go home alone. I take this particular route. This is also a time that I do miles and miles of walking. Sometimes, I carry some 5lbs worth of my stuff over a stretch of say 2-3 miles. No, don’t you ever think I’m crazy but I guess during this time, I get to be the person I want to be: the simple, thinking individual that I always picture myself to be. No make-ups, no masks and no emotions to hide.

Along with my trusty i-pod (which sets-up the mood for my walk), i get to think about so many things. I get to think of all the things that passed by, all the events that shaped up who I am and think why I have reached this certain phase in my life feeling like this. I don’t feel good about myself. I am not really confident with the things that I’m doing, I always doubt my capability and I always think of rejection - in whatever form it is available. I get depressed about so many things but sadly, it’s just my ipod and sometimes my pillow who knows about these things.

As soon as I begin my walk, all of these thoughts crumble through me. Sometimes it makes me realize things. Sometimes, i think of the reasons why this is happening. The further I walk, the further my mind goes. As far to even crying without no reason, just to let all the negative vibes out. I don’t know if this is an effective way by which i can continuously evaluate my self or am i just over thinking? 

But you know what whether it’s something good or something bad. I like this walking thing. All the smoke, the noise and everything that comes with it, it makes me realize that I’m no invincible and that I am very vulnerable with so many things.

One thing i’d have to say though is the further I walk, the further my thoughts and my ideas go and the deeper these thoughts crumble upon me.

I hope this is just an emotional outburst. Afterall, this week has not been easy for me. Especially it brings back some familiar feelings I don’t want to feel. Sigh. 

Because I’m such a lazy pig, i barely update my tumblr account. So for the nth time, i’ll welcome myself back. hahaha. Can someone teach me how to attach pictures here on my blog though? Thanks! :)

Before I go to sleep and finish what i’m reviewing (i’ll just follow through the formulas later), let me share twenty-one things why I manage to be happy even to some, I’m just like this…or so I think.

1.) I know God has blessed me with so much - Most of you may not know it, but I’m somewhat a faith driven person. I always thank him for everything and for always being there for me. I know that with him, everything is possible and that I’ll reach more birthdays with a lot more things to be happy with. 

2.) Parents - You know I could not have been more thankful with the parents that I have. I may not be the perfect son to them but I’m always grateful to have them in my life. They keep me happy simply because I know that they love me for who I am.

3.) Family -  In this world there are three sets of people that I really treasure: my parents, my family and my friends. My family continues to make me happy because I know I have company. Yes, I am not perfect and they perfectly embrace that. 

4.) “Farmers” - Perhaps the most important set of friends that I have. We have been at each other’s backs for quite sometime now and I could have never asked for another set of friends aside from them. They do not only keep me smiling but they how to make me happy. Thank you dear friends, I hope that our journey will continue on.

5.) IE/Engineering Friends- Perhaps, one the only reason why I stayed is due to my friends. I could have never been more thankful that you continue to encourage me. No matter how difficult, no matter how cutthroat this may be.

6.) Recovery from my surgery - If there’s one thing that I constantly pray for every night is that I may get well soon. True enough, my wound is healing faster than I even expect it to be. :D

7.) Overflowing of blessings - I always complain that I do not have enough but when I look at people around me, I know they would do anything to get just of what I have. I am happy because I know I’m very blessed. :)

8.) Yes, I’m Immortal! - Just a few more, and we’ll get there…graduation! :)

9.) Twitter, Facebook and of course Tumblr!

10.) The fact that I (may have) lost some weight! :))

11.) Learnings, learnings and a lot more learnings.

12.) Love….from the people around me of course. :D

13.) Cars, SUV’s and any automobile that wows me. :))

14.) Bus and bus riding. :))

15.) Travelling. Of course, I always make it a point out of all the trips that we make.

16.) Good health. It is always a happy thing to be healthy and do not worry of anything.

17-19.) A lot of ha, ha’s in my life.

20.) Birthdays, like today. :D

21.) The fact that I’m still around kickin’ some butt! :))

Seriously, I’m feeling blessed and thankful. Birthdays are always a time to be thankful and be happy. For that I give you “21” reasons why I am happy. :)

Good mornight everyone. :)

Nope, it’s not the Korean girl group. It’s my age….twenteen-one twenty one  (21) and this will be a good day for me. I’m going to school early, own that short quiz in that FACPLAD and surround myself with all the good vibes that i can get.

Oh how times have passed I’m now an errr adult but what the hell, I guess it doesn’t look like it or so I think.

Will you forgive me if I say that…even just for today? LOL. :))